From one seconde to the next the one person you called your best friend, the love of your life, your child, your parent, your mother, your teacher, can burst out and reveal a hidden facade of themselves. Unknown to you, your former best friend’s demons comes out of the closet, and as you have opened a vulneberable place within yourself it is safe for this sudden uncontrollable rage attack to transform into A  display of what is seen as this most vicious behavior. A discovered  ugliness that was once blurred out by a hopeful vision of someone you classified in a category of kind friend who then  becomes the worst enemy you ve ever had. What is seen in a friend is often not yet discovered in oneself therefor  and you may not have discoveredand own  that ugly outofcontrol facade within yourself just yet. The rage can last a short time and it also can last years. The longer one may bath blindly into one’s own rage or num out feelings of a sense of revenge and attack, becoming one’s ultimate goal, the more resentful one becomes. The enemy is not the person who is raging nor the loved one who burst out into a sudden poisoning energy aiming at hurting and killing. The enemy is the numbness the unconciousness  way to approach fear. Once fear is blindly approached and the pain that is caused by this action is numbed out it is easier to use it in a destructive way and channels more destruction and let it get out of control. The body the person is not the rage and the shame that is afraid of that rage. The rage is a supressed and learned  emotion and just like a volcano, it is dormant and when we least expect it it erupts and destroys.

With every destruction comes a transformation, the past is swept away and invites a resurrection a birth of an unknown force that paves a new path. This destruction and transformation is inevitable for one’s growth. Growth being a known clear certainty and a sense of wholeness realized. To be continued