I wake up every single morning with this urging expectation on myself to have enlightening thoughts popping into my awareness, to have me start this bright and amazing day and cary me light through any coming my way human challenges. Nope, instead I have these simple and absolutely not inspiring thoughts that makes very little [...]
My stomach is hurting from an intensity I have not felt for a very long time. When Shaheen my son died and I carried his little body in my arms for one last time before I had to hand him over to the nurse and it was goodbye. Fear. Agonizing fear was stirring and crunching [...]
To her husband. The one and only thing I need from you today you can not give it to me. An unconditional offering within you that can support us that can support me while I can gently and lovingly guide my daughter into a safe space for her to undergo her recovery. A safe space [...]
A mother who suddenly gets dropped a bombe and get told by a doctor that her child has cancer and it is terminal and it is estimated a month before death and a mother who’s child gets this invisible deadly disease that drives the kid to inject it s own pain killer until death are [...]
Four days passed since our last conversation and a part in me is very unhappy and hurting about having reconnected with dad. The part feels confused and frustrated and repeats what was said and it also have intense feeling of hurt and anger in the belly and chest area. I feel blended with the part [...]
I noticed lately how my dad puts firm limits on what he can or can not do in his life, with himself and others. He is very stricked with himself and other and displays an appearance that keeps ppl want to engage with him until they figure him out, then he feels that, and pushes [...]
I discovered a part in me who holds on to years of past hurts and resentments, this massive library loaded of only that. I can walk through îles of past hurt and scroll through shelves of stories that will back these up, with a couple of my parts and have them pick out a couple [...]
Saturday the 13th of March a week after Kiki s 20th birth day I called my parents to thank them for wishing her a happy birthday through the intermediary of Brigitte my aunt. As expected, due to both my dads urge to talk so much and my urge to need to explain how things works [...]
How is the mother of a 20 years old girl who has been struggling with severe mental illness for over 6 years not able to find a way out of this torturing nightmare after numerous visits different doctors at different clinics and trying one treatment after an other and the result is now her having [...]
To start with. Have I ever felt safe? Describing a situation a moment when I felt so safe I knew that nothing could move me away from that place in my mind. That beautiful fresh and sunny morning, at 4 am. One of those unique moment when being light so early didn’t matter. West London, [...]