A mother who suddenly gets dropped a bombe and get told by a doctor that her child has cancer and it is terminal and it is estimated a month before death and a mother who’s child gets this invisible deadly disease that drives the kid to inject it s own pain killer until death are [...]
Four days passed since our last conversation and a part in me is very unhappy and hurting about having reconnected with dad. The part feels confused and frustrated and repeats what was said and it also have intense feeling of hurt and anger in the belly and chest area. I feel blended with the part [...]
I noticed lately how my dad puts firm limits on what he can or can not do in his life, with himself and others. He is very stricked with himself and other and displays an appearance that keeps ppl want to engage with him until they figure him out, then he feels that, and pushes [...]
I discovered a part in me who holds on to years of past hurts and resentments, this massive library loaded of only that. I can walk through îles of past hurt and scroll through shelves of stories that will back these up, with a couple of my parts and have them pick out a couple [...]
Saturday the 13th of March a week after Kiki s 20th birth day I called my parents to thank them for wishing her a happy birthday through the intermediary of Brigitte my aunt. As expected, due to both my dads urge to talk so much and my urge to need to explain how things works [...]
How is the mother of a 20 years old girl who has been struggling with severe mental illness for over 6 years not able to find a way out of this torturing nightmare after numerous visits different doctors at different clinics and trying one treatment after an other and the result is now her having [...]
To start with. Have I ever felt safe? Describing a situation a moment when I felt so safe I knew that nothing could move me away from that place in my mind. That beautiful fresh and sunny morning, at 4 am. One of those unique moment when being light so early didn’t matter. West London, [...]
I often struggled with the idea of stillness when I make attempts to meditate because I confused stillness with a state of being frozen and parts in me interpreted stillness has the opposite to being hyperactive or controlling that state of hyper-activeness and mold it into a false sense of stillness. Which looks very much [...]
“My mom sent us a Christmas package by the post” B says all excited. I share in his excitement and look forward to the day the gift arrives at our house. On my way back home from work 4 weeks after Christmas, B is on the phone talking with me as he also is driving [...]
When my daughter tested positive for covid the doctor suggested to have her isolated somewhere for 10 days. In her condition we didn’t want to take the risk in having her stay with us at that point her substance use had increased a lot and she was doing it intravenously. We have zero tolerance for [...]