A week ago when Kiki walked out of sober leaving because the meds she was prescribed were giving her side effects she couldnt handle, when she urgently decided to unconsciously sleep walk herself back into the life style that destroyed her these last young years of her life. I once again experienced terror, I went [...]
To her husband. The one and only thing I need from you today you can not give it to me. An unconditional offering within you that can support us that can support me while I can gently and lovingly guide my daughter into a safe space for her to undergo her recovery. A safe space [...]
To start with. Have I ever felt safe? Describing a situation a moment when I felt so safe I knew that nothing could move me away from that place in my mind. That beautiful fresh and sunny morning, at 4 am. One of those unique moment when being light so early didn’t matter. West London, [...]
Day one of not using. I picked you up from Merrissa on Sunday drove us to the river and that was the last sort of precious moment I would have with you. As if this had been a set up to say our good goodbyes because if from this point on you do not save [...]
The last 2 days were very challenging here at home. Saturday was full of firefighters exchanges between my daughter and I and Sunday the same but this time between my husband and my daughter..... I was able to recognise that the dynamic of defenses up, were actually protecting or looking out for a lack in [...]
Where is Self????? I kept asking myself yestersay as I was feeling deezy and my head was spining ready to explode. I felt my energy was being drained minute after minute, as if I had a serious cut and blood was flowing out of my body heavily. At this point I think I am in [...]
At the end of us it feels like we are parting going our separate ways never to be with one another again. At the end of us our hearts are broken, a cloud of hatred is floting between us. A part of me detaches from me and remains bitter pushing anger where it can be [...]
A year ago my now 17 years old daughter brought me a plate of information that contributed to the birth of this new baby, a peace of me a part of you. 9 traits categorized her into what the mental health world calls a Borderline personality disorder. When a lot of you may say [...]
