Right this second I am ever so grateful for the trees around our house the unpolluted pure air I am able to inhale. The nature, the birds the deers passing through and the squirrels chasing one another to probably stay warm and entertain my cats watching them through my two bedroom windows. It brings a [...]
I was describing to my IFS fellow traveler, feeling dense disconnected confused and heavy after having had an hour long conversation with my dad. I was very tempted to make him the one responsible for how I was feeling. My friends stops me and asks. Have you ever heard of dissociation? Parts in me went [...]
For some parts in me not much seem to have changed since I was 4 or 8 years old. I don’t open my mouth without thinking that what I am saying is wrong and will get me into trouble. I don’t make one step forward or backwards without thinking I should shrink or defy this [...]
Still editing Once you are sobber and you have support for your mental illness you can call me and talk to me before that you are on own destroying yourself I want no part in it that s what I mean by not being your mother anymore. As long as you are the way you [...]
Day one of not using. I picked you up from Merrissa on Sunday drove us to the river and that was the last sort of precious moment I would have with you. As if this had been a set up to say our good goodbyes because if from this point on you do not save [...]
I am happy tonight to allow myself fully feel this hard intense feelings of being completly alone of being isolated and having no one tonight around me to check on me or to share with and hang out with have fun. (expect our beautiful cats of course). So much sadness is coming up in this [...]
I use to think that emotions were my enemies I categorized them as bad. So I disconnected with my enemies. I continuously avoided feeling them and I denied what I needed most. Connection and Peace and also room for creative energy. My emotions continued screaming for my attention leaving no space for me to live [...]
Why am I still blended with my parts after over a year of working with an IFS therapist? Here is a question that I am seeing quite a lot. It sounds like the expectation to be in control of an internal system, that was taught to be out of control during early formative years, [...]
How do I support my daughter in moving towards an independent and safe space withing her when she is so disconnect within and in absolut deny of it. I am sure a lot of parents who have young adult struggling with addictons and mental health must be asking themselves this question and preferably look for [...]