It s 7am I am sitting down content and comfortably on my coach with my Matcha cup, reading out loud the weekly lesson for my NVC course and as I am reading a sudden and quite shocking event starts happening, I am hearing this internal voice talking to me about my daughter and letting me [...]
.. If you could wisper, to the little child you were once, today with all that you know what would you tell her? And this is what I wrote Dear little me I promiss you that one day you will not be standing next to your dad terrified of his sudden unexplainable outburst of rage. [...]
Syncronised.... Do you have beautiful rainbow days when everything seem to fall softly into your laps. You experience a smooth flow of light that brings a sense of ease and harmony. The lack of any type of resistance feels absolutely delightful. Not knowing how you even got to a place where everything and everyone is [...]
It is a lot easier to see in others what can not be seen within ourselves. And it is easier to observe ourselves through a lense of a perfect beeing and noticing all our weaknesses in the one closest to us. Everyday brings a situation with an observed action or words expressed in my loved [...]
I have discovered, after struggling with this topic of emotional dysregulation since I was a child, that my dad, my husband then my daughter have been using this strategy around me to make sure I anderstand that they are in charge and in control of the space and situation we share together. To get her [...]
Right now I am so upset. My 18 years old is out of control with her life and expects me to be available and on my guard for her 24/7 to drop my plans, my state of mind, the rest that I need between work, in order to accommodate her needs to snap out of [...]
I heard once a remark from someone I knew, who was a healer, telling me that when she sees me she gets this impression that I just float around. That I walk senselessly with a heavy step, sometime slow at times fast, up and down vast areas I chose to occupy. Not really knowing where [...]
I started my intermittent fasting a few weeks ago and the goal was to reboost my digestive dynamic and system which seemed locked into using food as an addictive habit instead of what it is really designed to do. I also had extra weight around my waist that was affecting my knees my hips [...]
I will concider this writing today a journal type, because I don't write about one specific topic but more about how I am doing and what is alive in me at present. I have been on the begining journey of an intermittent fasting and the focus is being careful with my sugar level every time [...]
After a long fase of day dreaming into a bubble of formulated ideas that I unconsciously create to sooth an appetite for comfort and safty, I slightly open my eyes and realize that what seems real to me, what seem to be so important, so valuable, so safe, and so comforting, so yummy is actually [...]